Can I hold it together?...

A few things have been worrying me about the big day recently and as it gets closer...yes I know there's still 199 days to go but they seem to be disappearing quicker & quicker the nearer we get to it.

And I'm starting to panic...about all sorts! The latest being the inevitable tears on the day. We've spent a lot of time carefully selecting the right readings with wording that means something to us but they make me cry. Seeing Oli in his tails makes me cry. The entrance music makes me cry. The thought that someone wants to spend the rest of their life with little old me makes me cry. All be it they are happy tears but they're still tears.

Two very good friends got married a couple of weeks ago and I know this was one of the bride's worries before hand but she did amazingly! I didn't! It was the most beautiful ceremony. As soon as I saw her coming down the aisle I got goosebumps and welled up and then when they said their vows...written by themselves that was it, I cried.

If I can't hold it together for our friends twenty minute civil ceremony how on earth am I going to hold it together for a whole hour in church?!

And then there's the dreams!

I've had three wedding dreams so far all of them not so nice! The first was ok-ish but my dress was the one Belle wears in Beauty & the Beast, hence I woke in a slight panic.

The second was slightly worse...we had two ceremonies (no I've no idea why either!) the first in a huge room where H2B had invited all of the people I don't like and not any of my friends, the second was the day after up this great big muddy hill that I'm climbing forever, my dress getting trashed in muddy puddles and caught on rocks. I can see H2B at the top but I just can't get to him so he gives up waiting and goes home!

The third and most recent was probably the most concerning lol! The hotel had lost my dress, they hadn't laid any of the tables out to how I had requested, it's 3pm and I'm still not in my dress, the wedding is at 12 noon, and the hotel staff are telling me that there's no point me going now as H2B gave up waiting for me ages ago. And I woke up screaming 'No! He'd never go without me! He would wait!'

I think if it carries on much longer I shall be being carted off to the asylum! I'd love to know what they all mean though...they're starting to disturb me ever so slightly!

If any of you can interpret dreams feel free to have a go at these ; ) xx

Seven months to go!...

In just seven months time I shall becoming a Mrs....*squeeal*! 

"Minimoon" mayhem!...

OMG! OMG! OMG! I am sooooo excited! *runs round room and sits back down again!*

H2B and I can't afford a honeymoon immediately after we get married so are asking for donations towards it alongside a small traditional gift list with John Lewis. However, we both have a week off after the wedding and thought it'd be really nice to get away for a few days while just chilling and enjoying being 'Mr & Mrs'. 

A few places had been thrown into the 'minimoon' ideas pot...namely Disneyland Paris, Paris, York, Edinburgh, London and various other UK locations before... 

...deciding on the beautiful city of Edinburgh for four days staying at the gorgeous Malmaison Hotel!

 Doesn't it look fabulous?

We're now looking into places to go & visit & eat while we're there. Just looking tonight I've found some fabulous looking places...

And perhaps one of the most exciting bits about it is that being December everywhere will be decked out & glistening with fairy lights ready for Christmas! My most favourite time of the year!

Doesn't it look magical? I can't wait!!

The best bit of all of it though was booking our flights...I had to book mine in my married name! *squueeeeal* : )

If any of you have any tips on where to go, what to see shout! xx

Congratulations Wills & Kate!...

WOW! What a beautiful wedding! I wasn't even sure if I was going to watch it to begin with but as the day got nearer I got more and more excited about it. I'm not sure if it's because I'm a bride to be or I just love a good love story and a wedding...probably a bit of all three!

I got quite emotional at one point when the reporter stated, "here is a young couple, in love, committing themselves to each other for the rest of their lives". I think this struck a chord with me and made me think about my other half and how we've chosen to do exactly that in a little over seven months time. And hand on heart I know I've made the best decision of my life in agreeing to marry Ol...I really cannot wait to be his wife!

What I love about Will & Kate is just that. They seem to genuinely love each other to bits and it was so lovely to see him tell her she looked beautiful as she stood beside him at the altar. And how amazing was THE DRESS? Kate looked stunning, nothing too huge, nothing too modern...she just looked fabulous and how calm was she?!

When she got out of the car her dad seemed to take an age getting out and round to her and I was thinking OMG she must be terrified with all those people but she just took it in her stride and waved & smiled at the crowds gathered to watch. I'm in a panic about walking down the aisle in front of 50 of our nearest & dearest so can't even begin to imagine how it must feel in front of millions! I only hope I can be half as calm as Kate was on her day.

And what I loved more than anything else was this...

FABULOUS! Yes, they're going to be King & Queen one day but they're still people who love to do normal things and have a laugh. This was such a lovely, personal thing to do on their very special day.

Congratulations Will & Kate! xx